carrotsniffer

2012-01-25T17:47:00.000-08:00

Anyway I lose my phone. Ya i know right omg.

If you're wondering how it happened,

1. Me goes downstairs buy breakfast.

2. Sees a crowd. Walked through the crowd. Squeeze through crowd.

3. successfully gets out of it.

4. Where THE FUCK IS MY PHONE?????

5. Asks aunty next to me for her phone. Calls phone.

6. Rings thrice. AND PERSON SWITCHES IT OFF.

OMG!!!!

7. Rushes to nearby phone dealer, told that fella if anyone tries to sell an iphone White 4s like RIGHT NOW stop him.

8. And me goes to police station with Imei number and report.
9. Goes home use iCloud to locate phone but motherfucker switched it off.

10. Bf gets my line cut and sim card replaced..

Haih. He got it so easily.. Not gonna let him sell/use it so easily...

I sent many messages through Icloud and locked the phone through Icloud also. Once he switches it on again....

FYI it is not even 3 months old.

What's wrong with this CNY?
So much ugly behaviour around..

The other day (reunion dinner) my mum was walking through the carpark when she just dropped an angpow for that freaking moment. (Angpow was meant fo my grandmother so there were few thousands in it)

Old aunty immediately snatches it up and claims its hers.

Haha.. In case you guys havent met my mum..She's the last person on earth that will be a pushover LOL.

She told the aunty " aunty thats mine"
Aunty says : " Its mine. "

WHAT THE???????

In anger my mum snatched it back and hurl a vulgarity at her and said.

" I tell you hor inside got # thousand! Dont give me that nonsense! "

......

Aunty walks away. Like a loser.

wtf?

Just don't take whats yours...

Don't you know? what you gain is what you lose? when you take something's not yours, you lose something on you? Be it anything else even more valuable than that few thousand dollars or that few thousand dollars later on.. It is just not right.

I have no either how these people can live with a guilty conscience?

All my life I have never taken anything that doesnt belong do me... Except on MJ table.. but it still eventually flows back you see... You win and you lose. Its a perpetual cycle and we just play for the fun of it..

So just telling ya guys, don't ever take something's that no yours! If deliberately trying to accumulate good karma or rewards by returning it make you uncomfortable too, just jolly well leave it alone! Don't take it and claim it yours!

If not just return it back!

Beause karma hits really really bad!! :(

Nevertheless whats done is done so hope the rest of the CNY would still be great!
xoxo!

2012-01-24T16:46:00.000-08:00

Recently (before CNY)
1)Meetup with mao and jess!

2) Keiko's birthday

3) Meetup with the pigs

And took the ride we always wanted to take!!

Will upload CNY pictures after today because today is CHU SAN! Chu yi didnt take pictures because it was packed and rushed.. So only Chu er :) and.. today HAHA
Not alot la but still enough for memory sake!

Til then!

2012-01-14T09:29:00.001-08:00

You can never make everyone happy.

2012-01-11T04:35:00.000-08:00

Life has been about...

1) awesome nail foils!

2) watching a movie :)

Not bad, if only it was longer! :)

3) Sakura buffet!

I look like i just woke up.. haha :)

I'm a seafood fan! :3 ANY kind of seafood be my guest!

I just thought they should have better icecreams... Other than that I saw some new stuffs like fried food - Ebi fry etc so I think overall its really not bad, esp for the price.. :)

Had my fill. hahah BIG fill :P

3) 19th month

Taking a rest on a massage chair.. No edits.. I just love how the sunlight makes photos look great..

really not enough sleep :(

My boy and I have a thing for massage chairs :) First few times I was reluctant cos I felt it was a waste of $$ but it makes you feel great right after! So yup, if you're bored around ehub or the pasir ris gym, no harm giving it a try! :)

yayness! We love turning machines as well! In case you're wondering.. yeah, thats a capsule! inside is a jelly-green key hello kitty keychain!

And kiaping machines too! Gave a few tries before realising its a cheat.. Always only try machines that allow you to turn the 'kiap'.. if it doesnt.. the toys will always be placed in a way that 99% cannot kiap sia!

We wanted to catch the on in pink-ribbon dress and change it for the one at the top left but well.. UNSUCCESSFUL! Such a pity.. because he has caught a couple for me before..

Thats about all.. XO

2012-01-10T01:34:00.000-08:00

Just finished watching an awesome drama - 宫-锁心玉

:'( feeling empty cos nothing to watch.. and also because this show is just awesome! Loved the ending! I hate crappy endings!

I just googled and realised there's gonna be a 2nd season to it! -宫锁珠帘
Hope its just as good!! But its not out yet!

Meanwhile any good dramas to intro?? :)

2012-01-08T20:58:00.000-08:00

Fav bag right now..

Yummy macadamia :3

2012-01-06T04:32:00.000-08:00

This was before flying off at swensens :)

Yup i've changed my fringe into a center parting sometime back when my fringe proved to be too ugly as a side parting hahaha

On the plane. It was a midnight flight so I slept throughout!

Upon reaching Shanghai, evolved into a man tou... Seriously IDK why people say they love visiting super cold countries during the winter season, and that they miss it once they touch down singapore. NONONO! I hate the cold weather!
1. decked in MILLIONS of clothings.. I seriously don't know its the cold that made my limbs numb, or that the reason they are so hard to move is because of the clothing!
2. RASH.
3. NOSE SUPER PAINFUL.
4. go toilet even more difficult than climbing 10 flights of steps...

But on the brighter side everyday got natural blush HAHAH!

Some weird stuff we ate.. like birds and pau with straw to drink the soup inside!
Ok seriously i must say.. the food there.. SUCKS.
But the fruits there are def worth eating. SUPER sweet! Best strawberries I had in a lifetime!

YUMMY!!

Bullet train :) No wheels!

Lovely scenery at a lake :)

Goodnight for the 1st day!

Heat pack after realising how disgustingly cold it was for the first day.

Learnt more about teaaaa

Took some boat out to sea for the chilling breeze..

Trying to snap a pic of my hair floating around my head due to static. not very visible though...

Amazing coco tea again! First tasted it at HONGKONG and fell in love with it! I had it hot this time round and still as amazing!! Is there coco in singapore???

On a trishaw. One word : SHIOK!

A 'picture'. A hole in the wall creates a beautiful 'picture' that changes throughout seasons... ingenius..

crossing the bridge of "success in work/education". Choose this instead of the other one called "WEALTH" worth it? IDK! :)

Simply love this picture..

Knocked my head real hard in this awful 'rock maze'..

cutezz

cutezz x2

Cute OVERLOAD!! But these poor things were left out in the cold in cages! yes! no in a shop with warmers! very very bad! poor things were like literally frozen (not moving) :((((

Evillllll candy floss

New shirt i bought there! Much loves but impossible to wear back at home, given singapore's sweltering heat...

Couldn't resist the temptation to do this hahaha

Tell you the wind is like OMG. Get the hell out there, snap pic, rush back in. NO JOKE!!!

Beautiful temple.. Colours change you know!!

Ever-growing obession for leopard-prints stuff.

Pearl factory where I bought a bracelet for my mum!

Succeeded in making him smile afterwards, so cute!! I think he's just suppose to freeze there but our monkeying made him bth!

AWESOME kao di gua!!

Being a hero! eating icecream and it never melts!! woohoo!

Got on a ship for night-ride! captured the beautiful sight in Shanghai! awesomeness!
See the super tall building in the first pic? we went there the next day!

ITS PINK SMORE!!

Up and 200+++ storeys high.. breathtaking scenery.. and thats no the most amazing...

ITS THIS!! omg first step out there is really the hardest! I saw some dude got freaked out real bad and his friends kept poking fun at him by trying to pull him onto the glass floor!

Always better with hello kitty!

Went to an amazing museum with creepily human-like statues..

Yummy? yes! Fat? YES!!

Back to the same scenery in the day, but looks just as stunning as it was the previous night!

amazing lipton milk tea with NATA de coco!!

LAST but not least.. the very thing i miss MOST about shanghai!! xiao man tou... *sobs* regret notbuying like 10 packs back. know why?? its extra milk, extra yummy extra cheap!! :'(

Alright thats about all! hundreds more photos on facebook that is impossible to upload here!

Til then everyone!!
xoxo

2011-12-22T20:38:00.000-08:00

Hi guys I'm here to say my last goodbyes before i leave for shanghai! WHOOHOO!!

Yup, I'll be spending christmas and new year there! Nevertheless its okay if u wanna give me late christmas presents more than welcome HAHAHA.

Okok, nonsense aside,
Resolutions :)
DON'T WORK. SO NO RESOLUTIONS THIS YEAR. Last year I think I said I wanted to say less vulgarities. But everytime a man tai (MJ) gets busted by like a 1 or 2 tai I CAN'T RESIST THE URGE TO SAY " NABEY!!!!! It should have been mine.. OMG could have zi mo'ed.... blablabla"

Oh haha nonono That was like the year before the previous year. This was last year's

I'm gonna...

1) I'm gonna study!! Do my homework!!! :)

2) I'm gonna train hard!

3) I'm gonna stop overeating!

4) I'm gonna be contented with what I have!

5) I'm gonna stop throwing tantrums at my baby and avoid any quarrels at all costs!!!
I did 1 and 4 only.
I mean, at this point of time I look at 2) I would think crap hell bullshit why should I? 3) will never be accomplished because I only stop after i overeat... mainly because I eat too fast? I sometimes finish my meal before my boyfriend finishes his.

well, but I have something to share about eating too fast.. It's very bad ok! Because when u eat too fast you get bloated! Because you gulp down many mouthfuls of air as well. Yup I get bloated after EVERY meal. Even if its just an apple. Because I can finish it in a matter of seconds. SWEAR.
I think its just me. I like doing things super duper fast. I have no idea why too. Its just me. I get breathless after every shower because I'm like rushing like crazy. For god knows what....

Ok, that aside, 5) was not accomplished as well.. Think I threw more tantrums than the year before HAHAHAH. But on the brighter side my other half as decided to accept fate and subdue to all tantrums at all costs HAHAHHA. So yup its not exactly a bad thing afterall.

YUP. so no resolutions for this year.

abrupt ending cos I have to go check my luggage one more time. BYE everyone! TIL THEN!!!

2011-12-18T06:07:00.000-08:00

Gonna start noting down what i consume everyday from now on.
In the past no qualms downing 2 bowls of rice or adding few more scoops of icecream...To me there's no such thing as eat less gain less.

You just have to burn what you eat. but now it seems hardly possible.. with my less frequent work-outs and almost non-active lifestyle zzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

I'm still not gonna cut down on quantity but maybe start consume healthier food.. :)
And maybe by putting it down in words it might just scare myself enough HAHAHAH

Breakfast , lunch

5 cookies
5 mangosteens
3 cups of ribena

Dinner
1/2 bowl of porridge
1/2 bowl of noodles
8-9 pieces of dian xin

Supper
one packet of biscuits
milo
2 pieces of bread.

as u can see..my diet lies majorly on the last quarter of a day because i woke up at 11 today!

Hopefully tmr it'd be less carbs more fruits/vege !

Gymming tmr :)

I'm not trying to get stick-thin or what because i agree getting too skinny can be pretty gross... Im not trying to target a certain 40+figure on the scale because i think its meaningless? I just want to feel healthier and less... um you know, floppy? is floppy the word? LOL

2011-12-17T20:32:00.000-08:00

2011-12-15T19:45:00.000-08:00

Life has been:

About getting to know angel more ;)

Dealing with a super big blood clot on my lip :(

What else? MJ like crazy? there was a day that I MJed 11 hours straight with 7 diff people straight HAHA. This was at lisa's place :) beautiful tiles!

TA people! :) I'm flying next friday!!! excited much!! xo!

2011-12-11T21:21:00.001-08:00

Life has been about :

1. Delicious seafoooooddd yummmm~

2. New member to the family!

3. COOKING! (well some baking)

4. Learning something new! :) I say I must be the least musically inclined human being on earth..... =.=

I even traded my long beautiful nails for short bubble gum- coloured ones :)

Very nice sunshine through my window.. Took the opportunity to snap a pic :)

5. Lastly, a really mysterious looking herbal jelly in my bbt.

Looks like a brain.

2011-12-10T00:20:00.001-08:00

2011-12-08T22:23:00.001-08:00

Life has been :
1. Busy busy busy with prom :)

A couple of self-shots in the cab :)

Not gonna put all, even though i haven't got much.. Just gonna put a few pictures of those closer friends i've had in TJC :)
And of course my wifey lisa oon yi teng. No longer engaged BUT MARRIED WITH A TEDDY BEAR RING! first time ever a wife proposes to a husband! So i must keep her by my side MUAHAHAHAHH (actually just in case she might just propose to someone else......)

And also my all-time girl crush for the entire 2 years of tjc... SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!! :3
Anyway im so brave to say this here because HAHA SHE WON'T BE HERE!

More to come anyway but just waiting for friends to tag me :) because you see.. MY CAM SUCKS!! I SHOULD'VE WON THAT CAM.....

2) Abouta little hammy :3 named awesome number 2. I'm not awesome 1 if you're wondering....

3. About an IPHONE!! YAYYYYYY finally!!!

And fooling around with it... :)

3. Just relaxing.. going out.. Chilling...

Since its after As already..

Nope I did not dye my hair again. It just keeps gettin lighter for no particular reason..... Even the roots... ZZZZZ.

ANYWAY.. I know I'm getting fat la.. BUT YOU KNOW NOWADAYS SO HARD TO LOSE WEIGHT (with age somemore) *grumbles... I'M TRYING VERY HARD OK BUT I JUST KEEP GROWING MORE AND MORE ATTACHED TO BUBBLE TEA SO JUST LET ME BE FULLSTOP.

ANYONE WHO WANTS TO PLAY MAHJONG, JUST TEXT ME. JUST TEXT ME OMG. (must have place to play) don't have my number, facebook message me. Aren't friends on facebook.. Maybe we'll play some other time haha! :)

I'M DYING FOR ARTIFICIAL SWIMMING MY DEARS!!!

Coming back to this space tmr to upload more prom photos :)
Cyall people!!!

2011-08-04T06:54:00.000-07:00

Firstly, life recently has been:

Very much in the sun!

With 12/10!

Flying kites!

Dealing with a pimple in my eye!

Interesting events in school.

Today, Yk said something like if lisa doesnt bring her dictionary mr tong will fine her some $.

Sa : " its okay when the money collector is my friend (unfortunately, yes, ME)

Me : " but if he makes me collect it you and i also don't have a choice.

Sa : " yes but it can be like the circular flow, i pass you the money above the table, u pass it back to me from the bottom. "

Me and yk : " .................."

Sa : " its a joke! isn't it funny? its like lol funny right but not like funny funny, but its funny .. blablablala "

*stares on in horror*

OK, IS IT EVEN FUNNY OMG HAHAHAHHAHA.

YUP life is soso now, just that got a stupid sgc to do all the time :(
Seriously need a new phone now.. that i saw a super pretty hello kitty iphone4 cover.. salivates*

LONG WEEKEND THIS WEEK! WOOHOOO!!! GONNA PLAN ON HOW TO SPEND IT LIKE I DON'T HAVE A'LVLS!! right...

2011-07-02T07:32:00.000-07:00

My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

**************************************************

I love the lyrics of this song..
If today was your last day, what would you do? :)
I think I'll play half a pok of mahjong, eat some icecream and the fab mushrooms at vivo, drink some good bubble tea and sleep! :) I have no assets or $ for anyone to inherit or donate so its really easy for me afterall HAHA. so sad, lesser 'after-effects' felt from my death LOL.

Ok la seriously I'll kiss my love ones goodbye and say sorry to those that I should have apologized to for various reasons but did not due to my ego or preference LOL. Because I don't wanna go and then few days later somebody breaks the silence and say like 'wah that bitch owe me money before going, never even pay'
wah that will be very bad.

OKOK super TMI and I think its very obvious that my post-exam syndrome is acting up, but this time different from the previous ones because this time exams are over but actually so no over. Its like exams ended... then its like oh shit have to study for the next like immediately. But of course I didn't. I made myself so bored that I painted my nails 4 days before school reopens. LOL. Vanity really does wonders.

HAHA! had my first mahjong session since dinosaur years ytd!
Anw I like to share what I do with people, so..

So far what that have been happening:

Being happy and full
Hong kong and shopping!
Chillaxing
STUDDDYINGGGGGG!!!!!

See ya guys soon! Going to the barage on monday ^^ AMAZING~ MY FIRST TIME WAHAHAHHA suaku max! BYE!

Space....

2011-05-04T07:02:00.000-07:00

Breakeven -the script

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven

Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces

They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven, even, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryna make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no it don't breakeven, no

What am I gonna do
When the best part of me was always you
And what am I supposed to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay

I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces, yeah
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't breakeven)

Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no
Oh, it don't breakeven, no

I'm just thinking, if it was about 5 years back, this song relates so much.. Its a good song, I hope never in the future would the lyrics remind me of anything. I'm glad I've long put it behind and forgotten about it. I mean, I no (heart)strings attached, I just remember it as part of my memory, alike to spreading butter on bread yesterday morning, and not remembering it with love or hate.

Anyway I thought everything was going back on track this week until like a couple a days ago or maybe just yesterday. Its not like me to really take to heart what somebody says, whats more someone that doesnt mean more than half a glass of milk to me (Im serious). But my mind got so effed up this time round, that how much I want this shit to end is telling me how affected I am.

I have such a bad feeling,even though its just only less than 24 hours more everything I hate is going to end. Anyway in any case you are wondering what the hell am I whining about, its about my netball season/competition. Its finally gonna be over :)

I'm hanging up my shoes once and for all, and once its over, I will only remember the people netball has brought me to know and to love, and nothing else.

This journey has brought me some regrets though alongside with many people I have come to like and build bonds with. (Not to mention those that I greatly dislike). If ever again, I will never make this choice. You may say certainly it all balances up, the good and the bad. I'm not very sure but nevermind that. I've enough good for now and never want all the scoldings, injuries, humiliating and stuff to ever happen again.

Tomorrow is my last match which I really don't mind playing. Because its gonna leave no memory for me. I rather those that are seeking for a complete and happy finish in this last match play.

Anw don't get me wrong, I love my teammies :)

I'm feeling very down tonight I don't know why. Just hoping for friday to come and give me a peace of mind.

Are things changing between us or is it just me? I find myself (desperately) seeking comfort in looking at things you gave in the past and pictures of what we did in the past these few days... Maybe the present don't seem enough for me? But I don't dare to ask for anything. Right now, I really can't bring myself to kick a fuss or bring any matter up, you're so busy and stuff.. And I realise I don't want to anymore (like in the past) I just want peace and no bad moods and feelings between us. Maybe because I know how it would end up if I do. Maybe I'm tired of being an ass. Maybe I think you're tired of my nonsense. Maybe I'm tired of thinking about you being tired.. I hope its just me. I think tonight I'll sleep just fine. Its just your voice I need to hear everyday, regardless of what you say, or whether I said anything at all, and you don't seem to notice that.... :)

Night everyone xoxo.

2011-04-05T06:37:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling so bottled up nowadays.. Its like unlike me to be so, because i tend to talk alot and say alot about how i feel to the closest ppl around me.. But nowadays everyone around me is so caught up with their own stuff, some of them feeling very down themselves, some having their own worries.. Its more like I'm expected (both by myself and them) to be there for them so its kinda hard to open your mouth and say like.. you know i feel so troubled about bla..bla..bla.. cos it just adds on to their *(@^*&%@&*@. and its not solving anyone's !^$*!#*&! but increasing everyone's *(!%*&!$*&! So ya, every night I just go to bed thinking when it is time for everyones' skies to clear so that it'll be a better day for everyone the next day.. Sometimes I don't know what to expect from the ones closest to myself.. because I know my troubles add to their worries. But it just saddens me so much that they are but closest to me and I can't say a single shit to them. If its not them, then who else...? One by one I'm forgetting the things on my mind that I want to share with them.. Its pretty soon I'll forget all of them and thats the actual and real solution to it. Maybe no one wants to hear them actually. But it isnt about hearing the troubles/problems. I just need someone who lets me tell them instead... Thankgod for the space here. I just TOLD! :) BYE! :)

2011-03-26T19:28:00.000-07:00

Hi all! MCTs are over! YAY! Next up are the nationals, so trainings are getting longer and tougher nowadays. Everybody getting aches and cramps so much that i think we forgot how it felt like w/o them. zzz! So anw, yup, kellyanne's birthday just passed,

Hahaha anw i can't believe how fast i turn so dark!! like just a month ago I was fair like hell and now Im so tanned!! Alrights, thats about all because today some teacher pissed me off so freaking badly I said so much vulgarities... Seriously... I'm gonna pretend it never happened if not I'm gonna die from anger!! Bye peeps! seeya real soon! :)

2011-03-15T20:11:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps, here are a few CNY photos :)

OK, so jc2 life is so hectic! :(
If it isnt training its homework. if it isnt homework, its training :(
Haih, Im so lacking of sleep and I havent been going out at all!
This is bad...

And what makes things worse is seriously..
When you're so busy and tired, there are some weirdo teachers who are such a bother! >(
I mean like wow, teachers nowadays seriously have nothing better to do, they bitch about students? Com'on la -.- haven't we enough to do already? How ironic...

Instead of guiding us through tough stressful periods of our education life they make it so much more difficult for us?

Only got one word for such 'teachers'.
PHUI!

That aside, the MCTs are in less than a week :)
Nationals in less than a month, I'm wondering if the other schools' teams are prepared? But in the first place, are we? :) Good luck to everyone! and may the best win! :)

And today's SA's birthday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISAAAAAAAAA LAOPO! <3<3<3<3<3>

I'll be gone for a very short while this time and I hope the next time I come back, I'll be bringing back good news! (Be it good passes for MCT or a victorious win! HAHAHAHHAHAHA)

TATAZ people :)

Oh right! I'll be cutting my hair short soon! :) heehee! (ya I finally got to lose some weight)

2011-01-03T22:25:00.000-08:00

YAYYY! Its 2011!
Hahahha I know nothing great even happened in 2011, but nevertheless, YAYYY still!

I can't wait for CNY!! I LOVE CNY! :)

Anyway I got back from taiwan sometime ago and Im here to upload some pictures of myself HAHA! Ya, only me LOL! Many have went to taiwan before anyway, and not many are interested in how it looks like actually (in my opinion la haha!) I've uploaded ALL on FB, so my friends can take a look :)

At airport! :)

Its true! Im becoming chubbier and chubbier. haha~~ Everyday I wake up I look in the mirror and Im like haha! Im so fat already la!

Once I lose my extra fats and return to my original weight I'm gonna chop off my hair! I doubt it'll be any soon so I went to for a haircut first yesterday! :)

The last rebonding I did was in 2009, so when I went for a haircut yesterday, I realised all the rebonded hair have been trimmed off all these years and I'm left with the new grown ones which are curly wirly....

Anyway, before i made my resolutions this year (2011) I took a look at last year's (2010)
here's the post:

2010.
can/might really hold so much more for me :)

Anw I spent a really long time (1 wk) on my New year resolutions.
Frankly, its because I have nothing in mind and I keep asking myself why must have resolutions sia??
But seeing that I've kept to some of mine last yr, I decided its not a bad idea afterall.

1. Cont studying hard, knowing many have faith and wants the best for me :)

2. Should take more pictures for memory sake. (Can't stop anything from leaving I realised)

3. Less vulgar thoughts. ( I think wenjie is right, its not about saying it! Its about the intention to! For the whole of 2009, I dont rmb saying much bad words, but it runs through my mind like a cassette on replay all the time!!! )

4. To be more selfless, less defensive, less aggressive

5. When there's a card I can 'chi' from the first round of discarding, I SHALL NOT CHI AND FREAKING MO A NEW PAI!!!!!

My specs got busted man =/

Looking forward to sleepover and monday's results, OH plus keiko's birthday (in 2 days!!) WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!

Confession : Last night, I slept really well. I think.. I think I can grow to really like you if I try.

HAHHA! wahlao almost one year ago de post. Not bad, I still find alittle relevance and understood every part of it.
Anw I got something to declare. resol 5 seriously, no one should actually believe that crap! HAHA! total nonsense.
4 was a good one but I found it so hard to keep to. One year have passed and Im still as aggressive but less defensive or rather, I dont give a damn anymore! HAHA!

I think I only kept to 2, half of 3 and 4.

This year, 2011,

I'm gonna...

1) I'm gonna study!! Do my homework!!! :)

2) I'm gonna train hard!

3) I'm gonna stop overeating!

4) I'm gonna be contented with what I have!

5) I'm gonna stop throwing tantrums at my baby and avoid any quarrels at all costs!!!

Anyway some time ago I heard from people that some have been saying very retarded and ridiculous things behind my back. I find it all rather dumb and its like crap, like how is it even possible??? I really don't mind people asking me questions. Right, instead of guessing behind and assuming for themselves?? Shame on you! Bo liao people! :) They should make a resolution to stop spreading lies and MINDTHEIR OWN BUSINESS! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

2010-12-14T18:20:00.000-08:00

Hi guys I'm going to taiwan TODAY! hohoho~

I'll be back after a looong time :)
Meanwhile I have a few pictures of my trip to the zoo. Not really pictures of animals but me LOL!

Icecream :D

Here's me and my baby's so called 'weirdest' animal. I dont quite get whats weird about giraffes but nvm :)

And a snake which i thought was very pretty..

And a happy 6mths photo! :)

Thats about all, BYEBYE! see yall soon! :*

2010-11-24T04:04:00.000-08:00

Hi all I'm back again! :)
My problems have somewhat cleared but theres still traces of uncertainty that haunt me every night but nvm.. :)

Anyway, Im suddenly very free now because my dear one has camp.. like again. I was just complaining to him that day that since the day we've been together its always him going away. From KL to ASEAN to this camp that camp. I'm really gonna abandon him one fine day and go somewhere else for a long stay then he know! >(

Everytime he sorts of goes away for awhile it makes me think of us all over again.
All over from the start.

From how I just wanted to spite someone else for grabbing all the attention for himself, hence talking to someone else beside him instead, which coincidentally was my bee :)
To a little spitfire during sports day,
Realising he talks like someone I knew.
And many a times he woke me up during lectures with messages telling me to stop sleeping :)
Sometimes talking to him because I was in a bad mood and he's so good at nonsense :)
But his "act only someone' really pisses me off very bad.
Yet afterawhile I completely forget abt it.
All the stupid jokes like the pa-ng one. (which was made even funnier by his dad afterwards)
To the point where I realise he's really good at making me happy.

That was all before I really knew him. He's so much more :)

From the little tempers to the full blown ones,
The fake quarrels and the very real ones,
The nasty words and the ones we love to hear and say most.
The nuaing and watching zhou xing ci shows :)
The threats and the 'jusssst's
The highfives and the tickling.
The kickings and the ulcers.
The funny faces and the head massage.
The white hair-plucking and the head-torchlight.
The banging of doors but the apologys afterwards.
The first time at ECP beach and going chomp chomp to mum mum.
The many cab fares and the awesome IKEA cheesecake!
The superduper fast shopping at queensway and the cute boys at sk cc :)
Playing with angel and our tic tac toe.
To riding bike at night to eat prata and nasi briyani :)
Eating delicious dinners with your family and watching that horrible ghost show T^T
And Bee, big bee, small bee, minibee and booing and bingo :)
And our promises :)

Theres many many more but I'm so tired now :(
When you're not around all I'll do is sleep..
Hahahha but what you just texted me is right. Last minute I'll be running out texting you "I go out awhile only :)'

This is one of the faces I wanted to put in the 9 boxes but didnt in the end. hahahha but when I see it sometimes in my files Im like LOL. I never do make that face usually. HAHA Yes, the other 9 are my most frequent expressions between us :)

Hahaha blur face again :) see you feed me until I like a fatty already :) Please come back soon! :D

Anyway, the pa-ng joke is like this :

Bee : your surname is pang my surname is ng right.
Me : right.
Bee : means u scared of me. 怕-ng (chinese: scared-ng) ma. :)

-.-

That was before we were together. After quite some time, one day we were in his dad's car and he told his dad the same thing.

Bee dad : No Lester you know what it means not. Is not 怕-ng. Is Pa-ng (Hokkien: beat-ng)

2010-11-17T05:02:00.000-08:00

Hi all! :)

Many things have been happening to me recently.. Life can never be smooth-sailing enough :(
Just when you thought you cleared a hurdle, you realise that there are never-ending hurdles. I don't know life is about clearing hurdles or expecting them now :(

Nevertheless I still hope god bless me and my very dear one, as well as anyone around me who has to face times as difficult as mine now :) Problems I face now battles with me mentally, its making me so tired nowadays :)

I hope I code *Xar* tomorrow :(

I watched harry potter today :) I dont know if its just me or what but its starting to bore me out. Even so, I'll still watch part 2 because i think i will be bo gam wan to have not finish watching everything :)

Anyway my hair is starting to get into a really bad shape..

Haih, if i ever had a choice again, I would never have dyed my hair :)
So to all people who have just finished their O lvls and wanna go dye ur hair! Think twice! After that its super not worth it and u'll wonder what was all that shit and trouble all about?? :) And sometimes when you dye it black again, it is bound to fade off after awhile and teachers will come after you when school reopens. What a pain!

2010-11-14T17:50:00.000-08:00

Hi all! I had a good weekend! :D

Prior to my to-do list, I have only completed n.o6.
I'm really craving for mahjong these days!!

Anyway I'll be going to taiwan from the 15/16 for a week to about 22/23 :)
Honestly, I can't wait!! I'm so excited la! :D

Anyway I'm so broke! :( I really wanna work! :(
So I can spend!!

2010-11-11T06:39:00.000-08:00

PREZZIESSSSSS!

2010-11-10T17:50:00.000-08:00

YAYYYY PW is finally over! ^^

The feeling of having nothing to do feels great!

Nevertheless I still have a list of to-dos -.-

1) go see chloe!!
2) eat da can with the pigs!
3) play MAHJONG!
4) shed some kilos

5) pack my room
6) shopping~~
7) watch all the korean dramas I've been missing out on
8)hit double digit thousands for ninjump
9) Just NUA.
10) go taiwan! ^^

Today's the last day of OP and hope everyone's feeling great :D

Going out with mao on sat to get 6 done. YAYYYYYY!!!

Anyway,

BYE TO PW! :)

I'll be back soon! Free like what sia :D

2010-09-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

Hello! :) Promos soon and I've been busy with life :)
Will be back real soon after the awful PW is gone!
TAZ people, take care! :)

I posted because of miss doreen << :)

2010-07-20T04:56:00.000-07:00

I don't know what the fuck I just did.
I know Im too old for games already..

I never meant it that way..

Its just..
There's still this small part of me deep down inside that still yearns to be especially cared for by someone, that wants to be important.. very important to someone.

That as long as the someone passes by, I grab hold of that someone..

I grab hold of him or her.
And I live on it, I feed on it... I treasure it..

Im desperate for sincerity. Im desperate for someone who treats me right too.

:( lan ren yi ge....

2010-07-19T08:24:00.000-07:00

I always had trust issues,
But you made me trust so fast, so steadily, so willingly.. so deeply.

Im in big big big, trouble this time :)

2010-07-15T23:32:00.000-07:00

HI!

I havent been here for a loooong time because,

1. Life's been too freaking packed!!
2. I (ya) failed everything, so Im planning rehab for myself (Feel free to join me, failures! HAHA. )
3. I need sleep so badly!
4. Im so speechless? nowadays LOL usually I have a shitload of mean stuff to say but nowadays Im just oh.. haha :)
5. My com just keeps effing up..

Anw I was kidding about failures joining me at so-called rehab. I want genuises or cheap tutors who I can pay sweets/hr instead! :)
Haha Im serious, about it this time :)
Cos if u join me, we ALL gonna fail AGAIN!!

Alright, I'll be back soon! ;) Take care! xoxoxoxos

2010-06-28T06:00:00.000-07:00

How much to trust?
How much to give?
How much do I mean?
How safe do I feel?
Why always those same fears?

ANW YAYYYY GP PAPER OVER! EVERYBODY GIVE ME FIVE!! :D

2010-06-21T11:07:00.000-07:00

Some people talk about certain incidents.
To them..
The importance of these incidents, lie between the importance of choosing bacon or egg for breakfast and a typo error...

To me..
The importance of these nonsense and hateful things.. is so great.
It brings back scars, it stabs again, it stabs over and over again, it bleeds, it bleeds like it did, it is cutting into my flesh, it is souring into my heart, it is there, it never went, it just hid.. but maybe not too well.

Sometimes it doesn't mean I dont say nothing,
I never do say anything.
It has always been a choice.

I was not in the wrong. Ren zai zuo, tian zai kan.. I just choose not to say it all these years.

2010-06-18T05:38:00.000-07:00

It's been so long since we met up with Jessie! :D

Hahaha, hearing the stories about her new school life and updating each other about ourselves... Man, really miss the three of us walking along the corridors and sitting in the toilets waiting for P.E to be over. And sneaking down to the canteen cos she's hungry, and getting screamed at by stupid monkey tan. HAHAHA. The toilet paper incident, getting punished infront of the people walking by...

Owells, we just miss her so much!!
I guess the next time we meet up would be some time later :(
Everyone's so busy...

I'm just glad when life's tough and things change, some things, some special and important things don't -the hearts that trust in you, the minds that believe in you, the mouths that speak for you, the eyes that watch over you, the hands that pick you up, the ears that listen so well, the shoulder always there, those friends who always care :)

I haven't been dropping by much because I don't wanna post too much negative stuff. Spoils the mood lor ^^
PLus I've been running around like a crazy girl and stuffing myself with food like pig (cos omg its bazhang festival!!)

Anw I'm feeling so much better nowadays, in fact I feel awesome, why not? hahahahah so I'll be back real soon ^^
Til then! (L)

p.s And ya I know everyone's saying I'm dead for JCTS. I STILL HAVE FAITH OK! HAAHHAHA. Tmr study!

2010-06-10T06:09:00.000-07:00

My bro accidentally reformated the comp last wk, at first I thought it wasn't a big deal, UNTIL I REALISED I LOST ALL OF CHLOE'S PHOTOS. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
ARGHHH!!

:(

ahahha I can't stand her imp face!!
:D

Hahaha I'd never tell you how godsent you are :) All the stupid things you do and say, they make me happy, they make me smile.. If you're the only one I see on earth, and the only voice I hear in the world... Then there's nothing to dread, there's nothing to fear. Sadly.. It's never that way :)

I've seen way too much with my eyes for beauty that can be seen to matter enough.

2010-06-06T08:17:00.000-07:00

My brother is awesome, he makes everything alright again.
He says the most comforting things.
He makes everything logical and humane again.
He brings me back to my senses,
He makes me feel better.
He tells me what is worth, he tells me what is not :)

Do you guys watch gossip girls? :)

2010-06-05T21:53:00.000-07:00

Wow its suddenly sunday morning! :)

Awesome birthday with lixuan!

Wanna thank my friends who were there. I'm a strong girl, I've been through many things and you guys know this is nothing.

But there's something I want to clarify. I've not told anyone that it was anybody's fault at all thus far. Those who think that me and my friends are attacking you, get over it.

I've been sitting in my living rm for the past more than 12 hours and never even say a thing?

I don't have to and want to fight with anyone for anything get this right. I'm not interested in competitions, arguments are whatsoever. If you think there was one, you're probably too much about yourself.

I'm like that. have, ok. dont have, sua.

BYE.

Oh.. and just look at this sentence :
I'm the one who liked an attached person first.

Just look at it...
So much avoidance.
So much blame...
So much hurt these words carry...

Haha do you think what you said even made any sense at all?

Ok hmm anyone wanna play mahjong today?! ^^

2010-05-31T03:16:00.000-07:00

Stupid mao like to hide behind me and make my face big!! !^&^!%*&!

Maybe all this while, it isn't late fate. Its just me, me and my fears, me and my ideals, me and me thinking too much. I just wonder if you'd come back for me in time to come? If you'd really come for me when time is right? If you'd ever come back for me? But its okay, this is the way I see life :) I'd never ask for anything that isn't mine and never question about how things turn out the way they did. I trust they do for the best reasons. Even if you do come back for me and leave me there right at the same spot the very next moment, I'd cry and really take it as it is.

Because I'm sure there'll always be someone out there who's mine :) Maybe I just havent met him yet.. Maybe he just haven't loved me yet....

2010-05-28T22:36:00.000-07:00

Credits to diane's cam.
Here to share a few lovely pictures!

Trip to Yeenei's place!

2010-05-24T04:05:00.000-07:00

Here to share some awesome pictures! ^^

On friday

Met mao on saturday,

Spent saturday evening with the lovely people.

And was surprised at night (Ya, I was so about to sleep, look)

Awesome sunday!! Birthday!! ^^

Short butt.

A must do.

I'M gonna finish them tonight ;)
OI i got alot of things to do lor T^T

I can predict I'm gonna sleep v late tonight

I know la, im eating my dinner so I come here awhile ok!

Anw my birthday was awesome! I don't like being 17!! NO!!! This year's birthday is the second best birthday ever! (I always leave the best for the next ;)

TAZ PEOPLE!

HAIH, GPP, GP, CHEM, PHYSICS!

why i owe so many things?

oh no..

Every ride takes away my troubles just for awhile. A while is good enough too. Thanks for always always always being there, so quietly, I only see you when I need you. I wonder if thats the beauty of it? Friends that never leave and give not to take are (L)

Im feeling alittle sian because my mum wished me happy birthday only today? Nevermind, at least today's ending alrd.. tmr will be better, haha!

2010-05-21T14:48:00.000-07:00

I'm so post-season mood now! Haha!
Many pictures taken during dinner and at prize presentation ytd, will put up some here after Diane uploads even though it'd all be on fb :)

Anw I have really awesome friends, awesome teammates :) vVery happy ytd and you guys make me ask for nothing more in life!

My knee is feeling worse throughout the night, bruises are forming ard it (in the shape of a mickeymouse! :D) I think I'll see the doctor on mon, I don't wanna spend my birthday seeing the doctor or being bedridden!

Anw it's 5.57am now I'm on the way to bedok.

Just now earlier on I woke up with a mini heart attack, I really knew I did something wrong this time :( it's just not right anymore. I'm so disappointed with myself that I don't know how to go about seeking for forgiveness.I just pray that no one will be hurt. I've never been happier than now even though I don't have the right one to love me, I have my family and friends. and since it's so I really have no right to break a heart, confuse a mind, disturb something beautiful. All that nonsense said.. Should be taken back.

K im very tired, i only slept 4 hrs! ARGH!! Stupid Gerald!!
Alrights, I'll be back real soon,
taz everyone,

ANW, TJ NETBALL TOP 4 OUI!!! ;)

2010-05-13T06:12:00.000-07:00

Its awesome how someone brightens up your day instantly, without even knowing it themselves!
Smile everyone! Never never underestimate what it can do.. ^^

Someday if I ever have the chance to, I'd tell you how you make me smile, everyday.. !

2010-05-09T05:26:00.000-07:00

Hi mum, happy mother's day :)

I want to thank you for your great sacrifice for this family.. I thank you for forgiveness and assurance you gave me from time to time, whenever I hurt you and I'm hurt. I thank you for understanding me inside out, despite such little time we spend together. I thank you, for always being the last one standing in a trust battle, I thank you for the neverending love and your invisible shield and care.
I thank you, for always being so proud of me.
I thank you, for loving me.

I thank lord for having you, and I can really ask for no more.

I pray for your safety, health and happiness.

I'm sorry I was a brat and used to hurt you so much.
I'm glad I get to see things clearer now.

(OK I know my mum will slap me when she sees this message later on. So effing long! HAHAHA. YA I TEXTED IT. HAHAH OMG! )

Today's mother's day, I spent it with the MOST motherly figure of all HAHAHAHA *FAINTS* (gonna tio box liao hahaha)

In my mind now, I have alot of things that I really really really want to do.

2010-05-08T05:28:00.000-07:00

Yup, recently life has been like that, school, match, train :)

I feel that these few months have been flying past too fast...

Yes, I like life like this btw, I've been smiling so much more now :)

Oh ya, is it me or what?

Is it the 'couples season' now?

Wassup with people in love hur tell me?!?!?!

Oh and and everyone who's having their competitions too,

fight well, fight strong, don't ever give up! :)

Anw, god bless, on this special day! ^^

I need emotion.

2010-05-02T06:05:00.000-07:00

LETS BRING IN THE ANGER.

2010-05-01T07:41:00.000-07:00

Huituan woke me up from my nap today.

HT : " is jamie home? "

Jaren : " she is sleeping. "

HT : " how long has she been sleeping? "

Jaren : " ......30mins. "

HT : " If i ask u to call her wake up now, will she slap u? "

Jaren. " Yes. "

HT : " Okay but I dont care, ask her wake up now. "

Jaren : " Jie, huituan call u...... "

Me : " ....................... " *gives the eatshit face*

*****

HT : " Im at my house downstairs walking to ur hs or ur bustop. "

Me : " wtf dude... I didnt have a choice from the start, did I!! "

Apparently.. my gfhtfs woke me up just to PLAY MAHJONG. LOL.

Yes, gfhtfs mean- good friend hard to find(s)
Haih!!!

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起做梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

2010-04-30T08:05:00.000-07:00

It just brings tears to my eyes and a smile on my face whenever auntie julie says 'chins up, girls' after every scolding..

Anw I can't believe I missed the cirque!

Happy birthday gramps! (Lots of love :)

Omg I ate so much today I really daren't list anything. I'll just forget about today and have some discipline tmr!! But the blueberry and oreo chessecake was awesome.. and gelare after that.. sniffle* double awesome T^T

2010-04-23T23:53:00.000-07:00

Before the attack.

Anw, surprise FAIL. But its okay HAHAHA. look at her, so happy ^^^

Ytd was elize's birthday! Half of us had a match earlier in the day, (so tired and we still went for a visit yet she thinks that only jingying is tie xin wtheck but nvm!!!!! HAHA)

Shit man, I've had the sore throat and flu bug since the start of the week, and now its finally worsening haih...................

K now gonna lie in bed watch show for the rest of the day. I deserve it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-04-22T06:12:00.000-07:00

Hi guys, I know alot of people have been telling me I got a really bad tan from yesterday,

but..
we freaking played indoors!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tian ar!! :(
Im getting darker, DARKER, and DARKER!!

2010-04-21T06:02:00.000-07:00

OMG i have 2 choices.

1. Chiong my math revision to at least get a pass tmr.
2. draw out whatever's taught on court today and get a good rest.

Its a good start TJ netball! :)
FIGHT!

OK Im srsly thinking if i should cut my hair? It gets in the way and gets super wet.. And today it got sat and stepped on.. (You guys must be thinking Im sure its THAT long la?!?! haha no la, it was after a collision and fall.)

Hmm I think I will go with another choice, that is drawing and eating supper simultaneously(haha) in 30 mins. And from 10 to 12, I'll lie in bed and do tutorial 8, thats if first 2 questions doesnt piss me off. If not, I will just read the solutions and SLEEP! ^^^

Confession: I know I really almost never had the want and desire for the ball on court. (since a long time ago) Im seldom aggressive and sometimes it just seems like it means nothing to me at all. Im sorry. I saw some of you guys who were super 卖命 on court today. It tugged hard at my heart and upset me. Sorry. Next time I'll be by your sides, I'll 和你们一起! 一起用命玩!!!!

2010-04-20T06:34:00.001-07:00

OK tmr is my first match.. First time playing a real match with a new team..
I don't know why but wahlao play so long le still damn scared -.-
Im really always scared!!!!!!!!
Wish me luck tmr ok!! It makes me feel better that I have at least that 1% of luck. HAHA. 1% still counted right?

OK, chins up, stand tall!
The goal circle is mine is mine is mine! :)

FIGHTING AH!!!!!!! >:]

LOL :)

MaoLin says:
sian leh! how;s ur studies
mine is like all get single digit DAMN SIAN

2Hotter than you says:
ok not bad.
isnt that awesome
u always wanted it(single digit) :)

MaoLin says:
URS LIKE SHIT ALSO RIGHT

2Hotter than you says:
HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.

LOL mao scores a single digit HAHAHA. she gonna kill me but she said meaner stuff :( (HAHA you know im dam good at this don't you)

K NIGHTS people!!

2010-04-13T01:30:00.000-07:00

I mistook a stranger for someone I knew.
It was like shock, fear, curiousity, anxiety and worry all in a blender. Nothing answers to these emotions. It came naturally, just like any other time it happened. It must have really been too long *shakeshead*

Maybe just not yet long enough.

I don't know what's wrong with me. There seems to be too much to do. I've had a long weekend of 4days. Two days of mc for Monday and today. My ezlink card is in the office from Last Thursday til now. All and all of this must have really given me the wrong impression, that I should and maybecan really do without school.

Am I really a mere puppet or pawn.. But in whose gameplan?
well I'm starting to think I'm trapped in

My very own game.

Ok school for me tmr. I've had a long break that barely gave me enough rest.

PI
tmr chem test
missed 2 spa
Nxt wk season starts
math lag 4.5 tutorials.
Chem lag 2 tutorials 1 lecture
econs physics never started.
Promise to mr chon
kecb gonna kill me the nxt time he sees me
wk 5 tests.

I will make it through.

alongside with everything else to do with the mind to worry.

EDIT: Aiyooooooo.. I fell on the way home just now. In the rain somemore. zhen shi de.. ZZZZZ. Pain ah!

2010-04-10T09:12:00.000-07:00

Met up with keiko cecilia alicia and huituan today. Wanted to celebrate cecilia's birthday early because its really hard for all the busy people to meet up HAHA.

I came to a conclusion that whenever we have outdoor plans, they fail. My dear friends, not ALL our plans fail. Only all outdoor activities really :) LOL!

So we watched mongga, which was really not bad! Theres some blood and shit but it was funny too. Had an awesome cake and headed home after some talking and catching up.

After that I went for a mahjong session. its 12 plus i just got home. See, no tong xiao tdy :)

OK 1 ep of gong xin ji and off to bed! Friendly tmr!

2010-04-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

I was glad I went today :)
It was an eyeopener, I saw many things that can only be seen with the heart too :)

Sakura afterwards. Starting the dessert race.

They say ' spare the rod and spoil the child'. I think that any parent that needs to pick that rod up and use it, is a failure as one.
I just need a freaking rest, thats all.. All the nonsense and shit had to start.
When I become a parent, I'd never be one like you.
I'd never do something wrong to my child, and then try make up for it. (It won't be as good as not hurting him/her at all)
I'd never abandon them at all costs.. (Because I will never be able to return to their hearts)
I'd know my responsibilities. (And let them know I'm who they can really depend on.)
I'd never let my moodswings affect them. (Tell them I can always be there anytime)
I'd never let my broken-marriage to hurt them. (It'll only let them see how imperfect marriage turns out to be...)

People like to tell me 'afterall, your parent is still your parent. "
Wait, isit? Start acting like one then.
I really don't have the energy to anticipate your mood everyday, your stupid antics and tantrums, your changing attitude and character requires my emotions and feelings towards you to follow suit. Stop it.

In GP we learn that your family gives you emotional support and your parents are your strongest pillars for support. Really? He wrecks my emotions and mind instead. Entirely. Never once did he provide me with a piece of good advice, nevermind that. He says things... that never makes you smile, never makes you think, never makes you wanna live.

I needa sleep now..
nights people.. :)

2010-04-06T04:00:00.000-07:00

Haih. In a week tio by two teachers, one more reminder and one test to prove myself before I kena big time T^T And its only tuesday today?

Today Nigel ask me why not go poly -.- *FAINTS*
Whenever he sleeps and answers questions correctly (when picked on) I never fail to turn to cheryl/charlynn to say " I swear I saw him sleeping. "

Actlly I dont think its about gg poly or not? Even if I cont like tt, anywhere I go its the same. So.. just let me be HAHAHA.

I miss all my slacker friends in 4H!!! ESP monster mao, qianyi heidy they all who always give me the same 'no' answer when I ask if anyone did their work. LOLLLLL!

K I know my life sounds screwed up. It isnt really!

OK I must really do well for the econs test because Mr Chon was nice about it.
And Chem too because Mr goh's the awesomest tcher! :)
AND KEC JUST GO TO H*LL ok!!!

And ya, I lubs people with smiles!

EDIT:
Haih I really wish to get excused for friday sia.. My bro's POP...
Sometimes.. I don't know.. I just feel bad..

2010-04-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

My baby really miraculously recovered!!!!
HAHAHA. super happy!!!! :DDDDD

zzz I cant sleep now but Im so lazy to do my physics work? plus idk what to do cos i accidentally dlted the msg w instructions? KEC gonna kill me! :((((((((((((((((
NO more gong xin ji for me this week!! Have been watching when I shld've been doing my work instead!

Tmr school again. haihhhhh!
Monday is really terrible,
school ends super late,
double physics,
training,
oh monday blues!! :(

2010-04-03T01:43:00.000-07:00

Sweeties!!! :3
Aiyooooooo haha not my fault.

I gained 3 kg over the weekends(last wk to this monday)(thanks to macs popeye and kfc) And I lost a kg and a half since this morning. Lol when I tell people I gain/lose weight easily, its really true.

Anw today's trng was hell but I guessed it trained my discipline endurance fitness.
I need to stop being lazy and remember all the sweat, heat, lactic, pain, breathlessness is only for the moment. And the next thing I know, Im sitting in my room, infront of the com and eating my sweets. And of course, cherish all my lessons in the lecture room, or even not to take koh eng chee's lessons for granted anymore!

I so deserve a tub of ben and jerry's!!!

8 years ago, playing ball was just playing ball. It slowly evolved into something so deeply confusing, something nastily tangled with many other affairs.
I pray for the peace of mind for anyone having a battle in their head tonight.

P.S I don't know why I see your name only, I :) I mean like?!??!

2010-04-02T04:11:00.000-07:00

Sports meet yesterday ended well
Special thanks to many :)
I had two servings of frolick ytd! yummeh~

Thanks for my first prize in TJC!!

Awesome picture credits to diane and her dslr.

I BUSTED MY IPHONE! :(
Im suffering badly w/o threaded messages and internet access!!
And oh no its only been a few hours! HAIH!!!

I hope my baby miraculously recovers tmr morning T^T
Sad :(
Bro gonna scold me for not taking care of my things agn ARGH!!!

ZZZZZZZ why everyday also got things to worry about??! zhen shi de..

2010-03-30T16:38:00.000-07:00

I think god is trying to tell me not to be greedy and maybe, just maybe, I should stop and think about other people. As badly as I may want it, so do others :) always give and take ok!
On the downside, regardless of how hard you work sometimes, some factors are beyond your control. No use fighting fate.
I'm feeling better already, thanks to those who showed concern. My bro even called from camp :D and gave me quite a good and usable idea for alternatives. Speaking of that, shit!!! I have only today left omg! Heng I told him to think hard for me during his night shift? HAHAHA
I felt truly blessed enough ytd. Yes, sometimes in life, I shld stop and look around, look at those who are there for me and ignore those full of nonsense and shit!!
I'm on the bus to school now!
Why I never do remember Wednesday is late day? :( woke up so early!

Aiyoooo somebody coming down from VJ to eat with ME sia hahahahha :D

2010-03-30T06:08:00.000-07:00

Today was a very bad day.

I swear mr chon hates me like siao..

That day I was just thinking to myself, like what am I doing? Whats the reason behind everything I do? Is what Im doing now worth it? Nevermind if not worth it, most importantly, is it what I want?

I saw the notice in school that told me just what I needed:

Whenever you want to give up, think about what made you held on for so long in the first place.

I told myself : yup, team.

Now.. what? Suddenly whatever I've fought and worked(like a crazy woman) for is gone. With the easy snap of fingers....

I want to tell the girl who wrote the post on feb 23, to fcking go and die. Cos, who knnbloody cares? knn!!! NOBODY!!!

Sorry Im just very sad and anxious, and uptight and helpless now.

Just majorly sad.
Its not something I can wake up to next morning and think: that was ytd's shit byebye.
Its because, it was just here.. right here :(

I passed up a freaking blank folscap paper for my econs test today. Mr chon will freaking kill me!!!! (cos i have never done his work and he is already dam pissed!!!)

Whats worse? There is absolutely NOTHING to make me feel whatever I have been doing was worthwhile. I feel like a fool. Sacrifices? Gathering good karma? PHUI!

But studies is still my priority. WHY? If not im a bigger fool for coming TJC. I know my lifestyle and attitude ttly not for JC but srsly, its like MARCH? wassup man ppl... :(
Rachel just told me today I shouldnt have came here.
OK in a short 1 to 2 months, alot of ppl have been telling me JC is not for me.
NO! I dont care. Im staying! Whatever I decide to do, I must do the best for it and make it worthwhile..

2010-03-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

I want to tell someone everything that makes me feel upset.
But its so hard because sometimes, somethings you say require you to put down your ego, your face, your image, and.. your guard.

Most people eat, sleep, scream or have any other ways to get rid of their fustrations but I don't really have one? I just sit there and immerse in it. I know its pretty sad haha..

Anw, even though we never say it, but I know it, so Im really thankful for my friends who are always so steady and speak up for me all the time even though sometimes we're just like assholes and talk shit to each other (some of which whom are not particularly very very close to me as well) Yeah, you guys should really know who you all are, and you know, y'all are the ones I'll protect too :)

Not everything that you say will always remain unheard to me, (cos walls really have ears) both negative and positive.

I miss the little imp.

TAZ!

P.S Im not zuai -.- whoever says that should eat some shit ok!! And I will never dao someone who approaches me(I mean it) I mean like, thats srsly dam poor ok ok!!

P.S.S Major sushi crave :[

2010-03-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

Mind over matter.

2010-03-22T08:02:00.000-07:00

I'm glad there was training today. I really needed to learn smth.
Eh ran 4km today ok? DAM proud of myself for not dying ^^^

Confession:
Its getting tough.. I always said I don't care I don't care, but.. when its like.. so in ur face, it just gets me thinking, it eats into me slowly, then buries me down deep. The words " I can't take it already" is like on a constant replay in my mind.. Am i paranoid? or too emotional or stressed recently? Idk about that but I know I don't like life like that. Its nasty.

I only have 2 choices..
1. Live with it, learn to be mentally strong, filter your feelings and emotions, make it your norm. Get up and going, and stop for no one, cos nothing anyone says or do can matter too much.

2. I can't take it. Why should I have to put up with this unnecessary burden anyway? I did nothing for this.. This is no fault for myself to take blame.. I can retreat into my own cave and try to go by unnoticed still.

Im feeling unbelievably down. Someone enlighten me, someone take me through a ride, take my mind off it.. Too much of something, really tastes awful.

2010-03-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

PW homework, is to take picture of something interesting and explain why is it interesting to you. But I have no picture at the moment.. tmr got PW smore.

I thought of using this though

Its duh! interesting because its a 10 tai set of tiles! Even more int..? I hu-ed dan diao :D LOL!!

Dunno can use not??

Looking through my chiangrai pictures to find something int.. Awww.. Chiangrai.

2010-03-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

Pretty.

Not.

Oh man.. haha time flies. Us in J1 and us in sec1.

Okay guys, I've thought over it already. Its no big deal. I don't mind actlly. Like its already done..
Okay last thing..

ARGHHHHHHHH FUCK YOU ALL!!!!!
NOT GONNA TALK TO EVERYONE WHO HAD DIRECT CONTACT WITH MY PHONE OR FB ACC FOR THE REST OF TONIGHT OKKK!!!!

Haih.. How? I love you all so much man... can't stand it. marvellous. *sigh*

Regardless,
Happy birthday to KA once more!!

Ya, we had ichiban today, then me and LX went for two scoop icecreams at haato, then we went for swensens for crumble and earthquake, afterwhich we ended with a almond longan cake.
Now my stomach is rumbling. WHY???
Plus I had a bowl of wanton mee and another bowl of prawn mee earlier in the day.
My system is screwing up! :(((

P.S tmr post neoprint pics LOL ya neoprint.

2010-03-19T06:16:00.001-07:00

Its hard to catch up with people infront without losing those at the back.
Either you fall back, or its a lonely run.

This is life.
Sleep tight everyone! TAZ!

Tmr ka's birthday!!! Who who doesn't wish needs a kick in the ass!
(i know its abit hard to understand but u get what i mean)

2010-03-18T02:07:00.000-07:00

Confession :
I remember you hated kids.
I loved ur awkward smile when you're around them.
I loved the way you said everything was gay.
I liked your voice and the smell on you, familiar and yours.
You didn't know how to be gentle and loving to your family,
but I know you'd protect them with all you have.

You made me know I was family too.
I felt it and it made my heart warm.
I always knew you feared the departure of some in your life, I should have gave you the assurance you need.
You were so truthful, she could be prettier and you'd like me more.
And alongside everything else, I was madly in love with you.
If you ever existed, I'd have never let you go like I did.
Every now and then, as I remember less and less, I keep only the good and forget the worse.
Today is the 18 of march. 10:58. Weather : Humid Mood : Restless Status : single Tense : past.

Now its just me and you(ok you guys) and the silent night.
I need more than just sleep. I need CURE!!

2010-03-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

She said the brown one is me cos she's fairer. I wanted to insist its not true, but I realised the shirt colours correspond also. So.. WTV.

On friday last week Zy asked me what happened to me, because at the start of the school term, I was alittle fairer than she was. But when I slacked ard with her on friday.. I realised standing beside her, I look like I fell into a shitpool-.-

I went to her blog for a visit, and awww.. (credits to her) Oh!! anw, I think mac's awesomely good??

SMS convo (credit to threaded msg woohoo)

HT : " ask ah *** make(cookie) la. "

Me : " my dar say he not free you hear "

HT : " not ur dar ok "

Me : " hehe then urs??

HT : " abo"

Me : " KARphui!!! "

HT : " ASSSS"

Me : " hahahahaahahha"

HT : " bitchhhhh"

Me : " Oi."

HT : " ems kma lmb" <<(OK wtf is this???) Me : " In detail "

HT : " If you know, you are goooooood. "

Me : " Dont make me guess la "

HT : " Eat my shit kiss my ass lick my butt "

Me : " WTF???"

Falls over onto my bed and dies of laughing. I mean like WTF????? HAHAHAHA THIS IS MY GOOD FRIEND. POH. HUI. TUAN :)

I thank god and praise lord that some things never change!!!

I agree with her that if singtel and starhub see our messages, they gonna slap our faces. HAHAHA msging like its free. Yes! its free!!

Anw I bet she's prolly thinking to herself right now as she looks at my post - why the hell am I in the shit colour while she's pink?????
no la. she wouldnt. I would (if its me) HAHAHA

P.S Feeling so sick? I really got the thousand-year-cough. It never did went away :( Gonna sneak a bar of chocolate into my room without letting my dad know. I know i have no discipline.. but i need it T^T I feel awful!!

2010-03-16T05:51:00.000-07:00

Lesson learnt : NEVER ever eat fast food 3 days in a row before training.
YOU WILL REALLY FAINT! BK BK MAC = shit
Ok I'm starting to feel faint again..
Thanks to LY for the chocolate also.. Forgot my manners alongside everything.

Today, 1 missed shot =100 pushups (boys)
Guess how many pushups miss pang accumulated tdy?
knsphui...
Of course is DAM ALOT LA.
Even though I did compromise on the quality of some, but still!

My arms feel.. like they are not part of my body.
Rewarded myself w curry chicken at dunman, a few goodies from pasar malam, AND GOODNESS! The soup for today's dinner WAS AWESOME!!

Alright, TAZ!
P.S I hate it when everything fun falls on the same day. This is bad!! :((

It feels like it's been a long time since I learnt to and gave some love.

2010-03-15T07:18:00.000-07:00

Michelle needs to get her baby paws off my phone! Anyhow pressing the applications and screwing my FB LOL.

Anyone free to eat a macs breakfast deluxe tmr??! :D:D

If idiot lixuan gonna pinch me again..
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I will really really pinch her back just as hard!!!!! >:[
Watchout you idiot who wants a BLUE ribbon

2010-03-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

Met mao today. Even though I never mentioned, butI love studying/hanging out at Yakun!!

If she ever tell you she was from info comm wan, dont believe her k!

Doing MJ paper, PRESSURE AH! HAHA!

Met up w LX last week! As usual, the hardworking me. And the slacker LX who took this photo :)

Giving me the Imp face!
She got into this comfortable position by herself w my phone in hand.
Everytime I made the screen light up, she will leave me and come back only when it goes back to screensaver mode!! wahlao.. But awww.

Struggling

Falls.

Asking for help.

Got refused.

Thats for hogging my phone!
HAHA no luh.. Missed her so much T^T
I never had the chance to drop by for a visit!! See.. Her hair actually grew so much!

OK today plus tmr is my rest day!! Meeting butt tmr!

Srsly don't know how to do all my work? My bro not booking out this week. dangz.. I needed to talk cock with him and eat a good meal..

nvm.. TAZ! :)

2010-03-13T00:45:00.000-08:00

copying the taekwando people nearby.

leechuang me wx kamini gen
Haha some of us OG14 girls.

Gen and Lchuang

I love being around these people..

I just came back from the OG bbq+ stayover at jy's house yt.
It was good slacking and company!! And bbq chicken of course~
I hope the pictures are uploaded soon!

Confession : Life is hard.. But I love it like that.. I don't ever wanna reach the day I have to make a choice.. Growing more attached, it seems makes it a headache.. Because I know I have to decide eventually. It didnt feel that good at that moment ytd.. Meanwhile.. I'll thank god for whatever I have now :)

2010-03-11T06:13:00.000-08:00

OK I hate the GP portfolio thing.

And this is dolly the sheep.
I know, like wtf..
Science and ethics. Double wtf.

I really want to sleep now la.
10.30 le, very tired.

Okay, okay, Jamie, Discpline.

2010-03-10T06:22:00.000-08:00

Our angmoh with the little bottle of feng you.

I had a strain in my ankle today zzz.
:(

OK lets not bother about what other people outside my circle I drew around me and my friends shit about. I mean, they are outside for a reason right.
They just don't really want to get to know you.
Dramarama.

2010-03-09T06:03:00.000-08:00

Tonight I missed out in the fun :(
I srsly srsly love BBQs :(
Why?

I had training.
I have a math test tmr.
Im kinda tired and need all the rest I can have.
Is this called sacrifice?

I really love BBQs :(

That aside, Im suffering from a super major stomach upset because of some idiot mee sua I ate just now :(

Is there anyone else that can give you a more reliable answer than I can?? Just ask me!! Almost everything going around is like bullshit.

Even though it seems like a sad day for me, its not.
I realised that once you have been through tough times, even the littlest things brings you joy!!

TAZ!

(When I was eating the bowl of meesua by myself just now, I thought about how you could be the listening ear, the steady shoulder and the one to give me the assuring presence I need now..

But I know that sadly, only at times like this I think of you.
I knew this was wrong then.
It was no way to treat someone. )

2010-03-08T06:25:00.000-08:00

Oh unglam girl!

Before

After.

Wl.. Im super dark now T^T

K I no time catch up with work. How? Anyone can tutor me?
I wanted to read my lecture notes today. But I realised they were all empty. sia la? (HAHAHA learn from Mr Tan)

Everyone says I shouldn't cut my hair short. (I really mean like short. Like chopped short)
Taz everyone!

***
When you're stuck in the middle of a math qn for more than 20mins, and your mum suddenly calls you to tell you that both your younger bros failed chinese, its really like wtf. It just makes you hate life at that very moment. *big heavy sigh*

Yawns

2010-03-06T20:39:00.000-08:00

" The attitude and mentality you should have shouldn't be 'all the questions i see on the test paper should and must be done before.' but 'let's see if this question is able to wow me and throw me off.'
Jamie. Your way of learning. Its so dead."

Edit//
I will really finish sigma on the bus tmr :( Brainblock today!
But it was good meeting lixuan but but that idiot keep pinching me. OI I mean it ok. Im gonna do it. You watch out!!! Keep pinching me!!! If I really don't get back at you you will keep on bully me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'LL SEEE ok!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-06T06:43:00.000-08:00

OK huituan's hair was like that because we made it that way.

Of course, we did it best luh.

You have no idea how hard it was to take this picture. Alicia just couldn't stop crashing it, we even had to sit on her.

Just before we left

Alicia, practically DRAGGING me.

(in cab) Flash too bright!!

Keiko : " Oh.. We ate 8 cups of rice today. "

Oh okay.. At first I didn't think it was a big deal.

Cecilia : " My family of 5 eats 1.5 cup a day.

Everyone 0.0
As we realised.. How disgustingly OMG for the 5 of us to possibly consume sushis made from 8 cups of rice!!!!!!!!!!!! Like.. HUH? really?
And all that mayo...
HA. wts??

2010-03-05T03:53:00.000-08:00

The 2000 kids.

Big kid.

I think they were trying to do some harry potter thing -.-
Haha.. Looking at all the kids born from 2000 onwards.. It really made me feel old.. Few years down the road, I won't be playing catching w them anymore right..? I'd be the naggy one calling out " Hey kids come and get a drink first la!! " haha..

Searchingfor the yakults at the bottom of the pail! LOL

Will never grow up.

HAHA my math homework on my bed!!

Yesss, its friday! *triple cartwheel*
One last battle tmr at 4am!!
Apparently 538 was lacking of ppl...
Imma go sleep at.. hopefully 8.30 today.

I just had a bowl of porridge,bak kut tey and laksa!
Haha, I wanted to eat the peanuts in the porridge, the soft cartillage of bak kut and the laksa's egg! thats why..

TMR I CAN MEET ALICIA KEIKO CECILIA AND SMELLY HUITUAN!!
OMGGGGGG. AND OF COURSE, SUSHI!! Probably gonna cab down to her house, I srsly don't want to lose even a single second of fun and seeing them. Because I srsly don't know when is the next time :(

Ok Halima seriously seriously thinks I look like a malay! When she asked if I was mixed, I asked her back guess what. First guess : Malay.
It was decided I was a 'confused'.

Anw I think Lisa mastered my laugh really well la! Quite embarrassing to hear it~

K my bro just got back his results today. Next yr if I want to do well(meaning better) It'll have to be 6 As for me. I know it sounds crazy(for a person like me) and I also know that all the bullshitcrap about 99% hardwork and 1% intelligence was never proven and is obviously a lie, I will still give it a shot. Yuh, I dont even see him studying la! Why my JC life like so much harder than his? It really gave me a vvv wrong impression of JC life last time...
K no time for regrets, FIGHTING!

I pray to god for the healing of all the broken hearts tonight :)

2010-03-03T04:37:00.000-08:00

Halima : " Debra you shoot in 3-pointer I blanja you bubble tea. "

Me : " Me also la. "

Halima : " No cannot. Different she cannot one. "

* Bonk*
Debra scores 3pointer at first shot.

* Looks at halima in horror*

" RUN!!!!!"

O.K I shall not give up until the 9th round next time. I WILL NOT! Carroted jiu carrot liao lor. THIS IS LIFE!!

On the bright side,
This week's hiongest training is OVER!
Tmr ends at 1.40! :D (gonna practice my shots before touch trng.)
SATURDAY IS APPROACHING!! sushi~~~~~
Gonna get some freaking awesome boots on friday with the ruggers woohooooo.
I LOVE SCHOOL AFTER WEDNESDAYS!!

BUT haih. I got chem practical to finish now. Aiming to finish by 10!
And sleep sleep sleep!
Cheryl's such a lifesaver when it comes to homework :)
I THOUGHT I had no hwk today srsly! I was even boasting just now!!

Tdy, 2 dingdongs reached school at 6.50 and 7.05. When apparently, school starts at 8+ on wednesdays for TJ.
WHO? WHO????
Me and yeenei.

Our faces were like OMG FUCK NO!!! when yn said " eh today.. today is wednesday hor. "

DAMMIT!!! ONE hour of sleep.. *poofed*

(And n.o 2 DAMMIT!! How can someone be that cute ah??)

O.K anw I loved sultan and jingwen's reactions today.
*looks at each other in shock and ???*
*hides behind shoebag*
*whisper whisper whisper*
*looks at us*
*knows they are trapped*

I got smth dam impt to tell yuling tmr (regarding weixiang) BETTER put a reminder, too important to let go of.

OK today is dam funny ok.
HAHAHAHA

" Habib, how tall is she? "
" As tall as danish. "
HAHAHAHA DANISH IS A FREAKING 180++++
AHAHAHHAHA. jokers sia.

******

My mum always tell me regarding matters of the heart,
拿得起，就得放得下。
I really know its a hard task for me.
No, just a random thought.

******
Anw PHT stop saying I look like Indian. Get over it!! On days I look like chinese or singaporean or even indonesian do you say it?? Mai racist la!! Still say I bald!!

When you tie your hair higher now, I also never say you actchio right!! w****-look-alike! TEEHEE.
I know what you thinking now. " BITCH!!"
HEEHEE

2010-03-02T06:06:00.000-08:00

* Runs to kitchen for third subway cookie *

* Passes by mirror and looks at my own legs.. *

Thinks : Errr... forget it!

My heart deeply feels that the cookies in the oven are crying out for me~

P.S does training really build ur legs into big carrots????

2010-03-01T07:25:00.000-08:00

I loved today's training! :)
If only training was like that every time!!

Tmr got match to watch in AHS. But I end school at 3. rug trng at 4.30. Heats at 4.40.
LOL should I be like py? Don't go school at all? Then attend trng?
Or Yuling they all? Leave during lunch break? ( I bet Mr chon will find out at the last two econs double)
Or cab down and then back agn with wx?

ZZZZ.
Gonnna sleep now. scarly tmr morn i decide to pon like PY HAHAHA. OMG 11 40 NOW WTSSSSS

2010-02-28T03:28:00.000-08:00

Will post up BBQ pictures soon. Last few pictures with my long hair cos I went to cut it today.. the auntie made it too thin! LOL nvm la.. Hair.. Will grow one hor...

Cycled to Punggol for family BBQ.

Me and fatty,took by.. dunno who.

I know very awkward. LOL Abit pissed from waiting too long with an empty stomach.

Hahahaha no luh. sit my Uncle's lorry go :>

After that went simpang at night solely for the taste of milo dinosaur which I super duper missed :)

"Kor why U never save leonard's number in your phone? "

" Cos I want people to think it's a girl. "
Right.... -.-

I hate to find my bro in a sea of army boys. Its like... !!!! oh no where??!

Today I met up with Mao again HAHAHA. Ate like a pig. Srsly, she makes me fat luh. zzzzzzzz. O.K today Im gonna sleep at 8.30.

Eh don't judge me ok! Ytd I slept at 2 plus, TIRED leh! Tmr got school U know! Tmr got P.E, tmr got training u know!

TMR GOT PHYSICS PRACTICAL
I HATE PHYSICS LESSONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Ever since JC life started, I consumed 14 panadols and 3 packets of strepsils.
But also 4 chicken pie!!! :>

People who know me really well know that I really super don't like medicine and really don't eat it at all unless necessary. 14 panadols :(
Its like my quickest relieve and aid to my masses of headaches and on-off fevers. Once you pop 2 on a monday night, you don't really think much anymore on tues, weds and thurs :(
Do 4 chicken pies really make up for it? IDK..

K gonna bathe and then give ling a quick call and then go to bed!
YES AND I FINISHED MATH TUTORIAL 3 HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
Tmr mr math teacher (forgot his name) cannot kpkb already! ^^
But i skipped tutorial 2 la. LOL. Aiya, got *(!^*&^! for it already means its over and done with right! :)

JIAYOU EVERYONE WITH YOUR TUTORIALS!! BOO TO THOSE AT TUTORIALS 20+++!! Bu yao so fast!!

P.S haha (just in case..) nvm luh.. I 看very 开wan ok! :) Cos no matter who or what, he/she will always be welcomed somewhere else! Rmb that not everywhere is the right place for everyone.

I will continue to treat you well.. I will not drift away on purpose. But just watch yourself, ok?

2010-02-26T21:35:00.000-08:00

Friday's physical.

I really don't know whats with the hand! But I know I was LOLing at something else. And LOL debra!!

My feet couldn't touch the floor! >:

Too bright. I love the grass!!!

Nice green colour grass (okok.. )

Fell, really!

I love all the funny faces hahahahahahaha
No wonder dunno who said I did it well. Look like a freaking monkey girl HAHAHA.

Photocredits to ly.

YAY off to BBQ byebye! :)

This morning, Carrie was suaning me for not being able to eat super spicy stuff. She was like, my baby I will train from young eat super la one ok!

After that eat lor mee she put alot chilli for michelle also. Guess what.

Michelle : " Mummy so hot!!! "

Carrie : " um.. er.. okok drink water"

Me : " carrie.. " -.-

Oh ya P.S My knees hurt from thursday's touch rug trng! Accumulated from last wk also T^T

P.S.S Oh ya anyone wants goldfishes? Super pretty ones O.K. LOL. I will miss them alot, because they are my babies, but I will still have to give them away. I'm basically too busy for anything else now already, like changing water and even feed them luh. And I hate it that everyone forgets to feed them in the noon!

P.S.S.S I need to control my awful, unhealthy eating habbits! Im expanding in an exploding manner. BUT school's chicken pie SO NICE!!!! TART also! Yoghurt too! On thurs I ate two meals, two ice creams, one tart one pie one fruit juice, ate wanton mee with WX at bedok before going home for cheese kimchi korean maggi. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
*regrets*
I so shouldn't have put the cheese inside! It had an awkward aftertaste!

Oh ya, Mr tong (the dm) asked me if I was Dutch. I mean like huh how did he even come to that?? It was just as bad a guess as the mongolian one.. Com'on.. Dutch????!

2010-02-26T05:11:00.000-08:00

Time..really flies.

*****

Vighnesh : " simi l*n jia* "

Me and Cheryl : " OMGG!!!!"

Me : " Vighnesh, how long have you been here? (In singapore) "

Vigh : " 3 months. "

Me, cheryl : " HAHAHAHAHA omg 3 mths only and simi l*n jia*! HABIB, STOP EDUCATING HIM THE WRONG WAY!!"

It was a pretty good day today.
K I know monday is super near AGAIN. no negative feelings! no negative feelings!

K gonna have AMPLE rest on saturday night. Gonna sleep now cos have to wake up at 4am tmr cos susanto quitted -.-

Don't even dare to count my hours..

Have BBQ tmr night oh yeaaaaaah!! BBQ! wo ai BBQ!!

O.K I've made up my mind and I will not change it (In fact I never did) So ya, it doesn't matter who or how I end up with, I will still stand strong. Yup. There are some parts of life, that you know you just have to keep.

TAz! :>

2010-02-25T06:26:00.000-08:00

When the closest ones don't speak up for you..
Hearts really break.
When they don't defend you,
When they choose to laugh it away,
And choose not to say 'It should be a misunderstanding.' or 'she's my friend'
Many times you simply smiled or coughed out a dry snort,
I thought you could do much better than that.
You didn't.
Hearts really break.

I stand for all my closest girls, and I never leave them behind. And that.
Includes.
You.

2010-02-24T04:44:00.000-08:00

OK I was outside TPJC waiting for bus at 8 going 9 to go home and Im like omg this is my life. haha. In a neutral way (btw).

I have a math tutorial to do before Im on the same track as the tutor but not with the lecturers. Even kellyanne did tutorial 2 already la!! This is the power of peer pressure. EVERYONE DID IT. I better do it before I sleep tonight. Not do until i sleep tonight :(
Somebody teach me how? I sleep earlier than everyone everyday but I end up more tired than everyone :(

Now I have to go out eat with my family!! (KFC smore -.- cos the kids wanna eat it. I decided to wach my diet only after CNY meetings. Cos i Have a bbq on this sat, and keiko's house for sushi on next next sat!!! My policy is when you HAVE to eat, you HAVE to eat!! I love to da chi da he :3
I hope bryan's cny wishing to me will come true.
" May you cont eating alot and never grow fat."
I NEED IT!

I think when my korkor come back on.. dunno when? (ltr gonna msg him~~) he will ask why I look so tired and dark. &^!&^$!&^$^! kkb.

Anw I love the chicken pie in school! woohoo!!

I realised its not tougher. I got weaker.
Need to train up my fitness I feel like a cow -.-

" Looks are only a bonus. "

" Look, he is like a big walking bonus! "

HAHAHAHAHA CANT STAND IT.

Ok I better stretch a hell lot when Im doing my tutorials. After so many reminders and warnings to stretch my calves and if I still don't do it, Im really asking for it!

OK FIGHT! TMR lessons end at 1plus!!! YAY! I found out that Friday is actually my free day!! DOUBLE YAYYYY!!!!
K mao if u're seeing this I wanna tell you please dont empty promise me about my holiday OMG the stress and tiredness is making me drool and yearn for it!!!!!!!!

Confession : Today I learnt that I must really learn to accept it. Its is fact. Accept what I am and what I've become.. No more regretting, no more thinking how it could havebeen. Yes accept life accept fate! (yeah!)

2010-02-23T06:00:00.001-08:00

Confession: I kinda sorted things out and I realised the journey has already started. Yes I must be strong and not fear tiredness and not give in to laziness.. I chose life just as life chose me. Its gonna be exhausting but Im gonna pull through, Im gonna do every lap just like its the last lap (its a mind-cheating thing I use on myself all the time) I will not make up excuses and neither will I pontang. Whenever I hear the voice (yes my voice) saying ' you need break! you need to skip this and that!' I say no and I will hang in there and push it through, just like how there isnt a choice when you're stuck in the middle of a 7km run.

Even though i know its daunting, even though I know it gets so hard to breathe, I feel the little spark of anticipation in me, I feel the challenge, I feel.. its waiting for me.

Tonight I shall go to bed and wake up in the morning as a strong and determined young individual HAHAHA. (one that who doesnt snooze at all)

2010-02-22T04:56:00.000-08:00

" By any chance, are you looking at someone at training? "

" No sir, no really! "

By chance, tdy I got to learn that knowing people better, just alittle, it changes alot.

And I know the next time I get to know people alittle, just alittle more again, it will change alot too.

OK I had a major cramp today in both legs during trng, my toes keep curling and my calf muscles went square I almost thought I had demon in me.

And I really... haih.
The truth is, I have no faith in surviving my physics tutorials w koh eng chee for the rest of the yr!!!!

You know the awkward way you doze off with ur hand in your face, and it slips??? omg it happened countless times to me during physics practical. PRACTICAL LEH!!! :(
Im so in for it!! I need more than just strong mental strength to do well for physics!!

I love it that the way Ms debbie reacts and fusses is a striking resemblance to lily koh. She's just more open and younger, but the facial expressions!! Its like from the same mould! *rolls eyes, autoskip*

OK I need to sleep,but I got a physics graph to draw. And I just have to mention, THAT FREAKING DONT KNOW HOW TO DRAW IT!!!!

The only thing that is worth a weak smile now, is that my longest day of the week... Its finally over :)

P.S.S The truth is I still think of you once in awhile.
But the other truth is, I'd never know the truth. Maybe what I know is the truth. Maybe it isnt. But Im still disgusted and annoyed..... to think that there were lies and fakes and pretends.

2010-02-21T05:54:00.000-08:00

Bai nian at huituan's house ^^

Out 'studying' with mao. 'Studying' cos I have 3 math tutorials left undone HAHA. shit? I shall complete my chem and go to bed. My head aches my throat's raw and itchy, my nose's running! This time, I'm sick for toooo long! :( Plus I dont wanna be a sissy and sit out for p.e! >:(

I posted a confession yesterday but it couldn't publish. hahaha, maybe its heaven's will. Monday is my longest day at school. Arghhhhh monday monday monday hate mondays!

I will upload pictures that needs to be tagged on fb soon :)

Can't wait to see keiko and the rest on saturday! But it clashes with my family bbq! again! whassup with saturdays? :< Pls ask me out on sundays. (esp to study HAHAHAHHA)

Me : " No no no. Don't press onto my bag. Its dam heavy. "

Mao : " haha "

Me : " Im serious, theres a G.C inside ok "

LOL. I can't get enough of it.

2010-02-18T04:26:00.000-08:00

Part of the 2000 batch ;)

The boys at the back playing tap tap.

hehheh! The oranges have small angpows put togth with them! $2!

Disturb disturb

This is wan fou ling.. My aunt is a nun here, it is the temple on the opposite side of tanah mrt, with anglican high on the other. Have been coming here every chu yi since I was born. Many memories of running down the hallway and visiting the dorms togth w my cousins.. Now old liao... sit there drink tea wait for lion dance come HAHA.

The little monks at the back ^^

At grandaunt's

The non-gamblers HAHA

When me and leng sat out for one round.. at about 9, 10 plus before KA and LX visited. talked alot.. Didn't take picture cos she removed makeup -.- omg so lame. Yet she keep shoving the camera under my nose.

hehe my iphone. There was this particular set of MJ I was playing that totally blended with the pink of my nails! (hm.. k.. )

Quite a draggy trip to toa payoh.. Ok now I know why people say I look pissed all the time. I figured out its the eyebrows. Anw if u're wondering, the lightings are different cos the vehicle is moving luh! HAHAHA. And I dont know whats with the hat, my uncle had it on the van. Its so weird! (I mean to have it on the van, esp for a man HAHAHA )

My mum said I had a similar hat when I was younger. OMG ITS TRUE! Srsly, what do mothers not know???!

And just another extra picture of me.I had SHORT hair! :D

TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY I SHALL DO MY WORK!! YESSS!! FIGHTING! WHY?
Because Nigel did until pg 50, while Im only at pg3, which does not require any doing of work til page, and Habib just said he went to the library today, maolin said she started work already, huituan is busy ALL the time, OMG?? OH MY GOD. Oh, tmr math last period. Can copy answer. K, one down!!
Anw my motto now is to be like a jiahong. Yes, a legend. I'm so inspired and motivated. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! :)

IDK when is the next time I'll be back. I'm loaded with undone work!! Still got more pictures w my cousins and chu si ye pics!!
Met maolin today. We used 3-4 hours to talk. Girls.. will always be girls. AHAHA.

2010-02-17T04:45:00.000-08:00

The dearest people in my life:

My mummy.. I got my eyes and mouth from her haha.. Obviously I didnt get the skinny gene and of course, the fair gene -.- I used to look alot like her, but lesser as I grow older. (yes I have smaller eyes than her)

My dear ah ma :DD that I will always always xiao shun regardless of what happens in the past/future.

And also my stinky brothers. haha Jacob looks more like Jason doesn't he. People always say Im the stinky one that was picked up from the dump -.-

Fatty.. The youngest of the family and the one that makes me worry all the time.. Eats too much, studies too little, talks to much to girls, dedicates less time to learning.

I know I look ill. I still am. I fell sick on bloody chu yi leh!!!! My throat like scraped raw :( Fever for second and third day. But still perservere on for my baby xiao hong zhong HAHAHA. eh I won $300++ from gambling this yr (mainly MJ) Its a good start! ^^
Not gonna play too very often from now on le.. (dont scoff ok) I don't want to become lan du.

OK, its 9 now, I just realised Ihave alot of things to do so I posted only a few first. (Nxt post then post everything ba)
K gonna list before I go.

1. Find out what tutorials I need to do (COS I HAVENT DONE ANY OMG)
2. Find my notes cos I lost them and file them.
3. Print my timetable
4. Write return letter to my angel,
5. Get something for my mortal.
6. I think thats all la hor..
7. Oh no! Put my GC into my bag!!! K now i must find it!!!!!!

**

People : " Oh TJC ah.. haha also good la.. "

People : " Oh! Cat high ah?? Very far hor?? But good luh, time to learn new things right! "

People : " TEKONG AH???? WAH NOWADAYS ARMY LIKE HOLIDAY RIGHT!! EVEN GOT ICECREAM HOR? WHEN IS ICECREAM DAY? WHEN BOOK IN AGAIN? hahahaha~ "

TEKONG > Cat high > Temasek

I love people.

2010-02-16T05:56:00.000-08:00

Im taking out my angpow $$ from my angpows as I surf around on the net...
And Im thinking.. How did my family become like that?

Mum and dad hiding bankbooks and quarrelling over buying another car because they wanna take routes when going visiting during cny -.-

I mean whats with the $$$??

Wow. This year so many $12...
Feeling just alittle bit dull tonight, but nevertheless, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE !!! (ESP THE ONES I LOVE!!)

CNY pics up next time TMR GOT SCH oh man so zzzzzzz.

2010-02-13T00:29:00.000-08:00

machiam cruise hor?

I think we look kinda huge lol!

hahahaahah

But right after this pic...

HAHAHA.

All that evil-pinching behind this smile......

FAV!!!

Yes I can do that. I kinda mastered it at hm. LOL But.. I can't do both outwards.

hehe guess who is this.

Lixuan la.. keep take take take when I eating the ice.

I named this pic, "Thank you guys, I love you all."

HEHE huituan looks like someone (inside joke)

Hehe LX pinch me smore I set this as my DP.

Oh... The mushroom.. It got overturned.

elize tou kan wo~~ ^^

Huituan solo.

The ba gei face hahahaha

hehe can't tell we played shooters with each other for 4 years hor. AHAHHAHA. Cos u see, she like want to beat me like that.

Nice wind and pasir ris people

You won't wanna know what we did before this HAHAHA.

My bro is back!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHA DAM HAPPY!! I knw he don't look much like me but he is really mybro hahahahaha. We came back at almost the same time. cos huituan's sister fetched me hm so I didnt go 'ying jie' him.

Ok mybro say my uni very ugly, even uglier than jacob's cat high uniform. I can go join them at army le. K i go join le byebye.

2010-02-12T03:23:00.000-08:00

everyone's wrong angle HAHAHAHA. My hair used to be about jessie's shade.. Had to dye back.. Many people told me I look better with darker hair, some otherwise. But seeing her hair.. I somehow miss my brown hair luh!!

Fellow TJCians. I LOVE them! The first day of school because they were worried I might have to go to school alone, they texted me. awww :)

Maolin is my backside HAHAHAHA.

HAHAHA OMG I FIND THIS DAM FUNNY. mao say cannot post but i couldnt help it luh!! so i didnt post hers only HAHAHAHA but funny what.

(L)(L)

hehe~ LX better stop pinching me OK! ITS NOT FUNNY.

OK I gtg now, Jocelyn's texted me and Im gonna go decide on my PDP. gonna upload the other 3/4 here and all on fb tmr!!
Now I got 1hour to lie in bed and think whether to join netball or Touchrug. Someone help me pls!!!

Having enough shit from my own environment.. And to know that at the other side, the same shit is happening, it really makes me feel very awful. Will I have to live under such circumstances from now on?? I shouldn't have blown up. But I've been through more than a week of all that nonsense. I really thought I had a break. Okay hahaha.. Next time I'll just take it as passing wind. Hear it, but don't feel it with your heart/mind can le. Yeah!! :D

*****

Me and huituan : " Cher why so much white hair now? "
Hamdan : " Cos now no student who is like Jamie. She, lesson -sleep. Homework -nothing to mark. Test -all cross.
Me : " WAHLAO!"

2010-02-11T06:26:00.000-08:00

Back from T rugby trials today..
My knees hurt so much because of the grass X_X
Lousy sia me Got specks of bruises. LOL.

Haih.. Tmr have to submit le.. Still dont know how.

Today bo dai bo ji tio by DM wts...? By right from experience, wtv I do, I always try my best not to get caught at all. But this is srsly... ?!??! Cos he ddnt even caught me doing anything -.- tard.

When he rmb my name for life ( as they often say), he'd be wondering, wth did she do?? to himself everytime he sees me really.

OK I met kamini when I was alighting from my bus home today. I realised how much I miss her!!! :( Im gonna see lesser and lesser of her le.. Cos of timetables and stuff.

YAYYYY TMR I CAN FINALLY SEE ALL FAMILIAR FACES OHYEAAHH!!
GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE GG FOR ROADRUN TMR!!!!

Oh right.. P.S Why so much hate?? act bitch stab shit. act bitch stab shit. Your life is a repeating play of these four words.

Please act on impulse

2010-02-10T06:13:00.000-08:00

Ha dnetball trng today and my ass hurts big time..
Its 10.30 I just ate my dinner, good. flat tummy -this is what trng does for u.

I dont like to 欠 people stuff. 欠东西还可以还，欠人情，是一辈子 man..

I know alot people telling me things to scare me,
like if u join touch rug,
1. u get fat legs.
2. u get broad shoulders
3. u get flat chest.

WTS?? Im sure its true luh! Anw Im more than half way there alrd.. zzzz. Oh I love the boots and ball srsly!!

I dunno. Super dilemma now. Only got tmr(thurs) to think about it. FIGHT!!!

K go sleep now. Its 11!! TMR STILL GOT SCHOOL SIAANNNN

Haih.. Need a new towel. So long never train, towels dunno all throw where...

I want to tell ling that.. WO AI NI!!!!!!!!!!! WO AI NI!!!! WO AI NI!!!!!!!! HEN DUO!!!

2010-02-09T05:15:00.000-08:00

Tdy is a dam eventful day. Imma go bookmark my calendar!!!

Before the trials me and wx went to tampiness to shop shop. I bought a planner book HAHAHA I KNOW I know I'll never use it for its main and due purpose, (which is to plan) but well, dont care la, hahahaha. I felt quite happy when I realised I bought it when unpacking my bag just now.

I can't be assed to buy a new bag... Actually I can't find one too. Annoying, nothing appeals nowadays.

Just got home, andandand Im eating my bowl of yi mian while surfing the net now. What can be more xin fu than this man.... (w 1 more plate of char kway teow I think hahahaha)

Its been so long since I met my friends, messages can't really convey whatever and everything I want to say luh........ We keep missing calling each other to. Esp the idiot ht.... ONE day we can miss call each other 5-6 times wtheck!!??!
And everyday when I take the train home, I carry that little glimmer of hope in me I happen to see my friends from other JCs on the train.... (To show we really got 'yuan' HAAHAHAHA ok I know its a dam lame game, just meet up can already right, but still! )

TMR is CG BONDING DAY.
Can't really tell how I feel right.
Can't really tell how my face is now, right.

You'll see it tmr.

2010-02-08T04:43:00.000-08:00

*Takes out my box of eggtarts to eat*
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.
.
.

Just nice at that moment..

2009 ?}?????w???????? ?????????? 2Hotter than you, cause the spotlight, ain't nothing without you girl says:
yo fat

2Hotter than you says:
wl
wWL
im still a girl ok bryan

*then stares at my box of eggtarts in horror*

I miss my kor so much :'( its only about 2-3 days only!! I want him back.................. Mummy says Im just being very fan jian. Cos usually I always bo chup my kor, and also now he's gone, nobody to blast the music and watch tv when Im trying to sleep, nobody to snatch the desktop w me.. Which is wtv I've always been complaining about.. Ya, BUT I STILL WANT HIM BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK. I really hope he will be able to feel good and comfortable enough at camp.. :)

I have a major overload of butterflies and HAHAHAHAHAHHAppiness.
For what. I also dont know sia... :}
Looking forward to see all my friends tmr... Want to hang out with them more ever since we got into our different classes... Think I won't be changing class le ba o.o

For many years, through pictures, videos, or (yes) mirrors, I realise my unfamiliarity (or sometimes even hostility) to some people, (or sometimes even certain individuals), can be shown on my face so evidently. I really wonder if is it that I don't have the gift for acting and the habit of lying, or that Im simply just too impolite.

Tmr I'll have to wear my tie. I don't know how to tie one. HAHAHA SHIT?

Me and my round face

2010-02-07T06:06:00.000-08:00

Met mao in the morning! NEXT TIME TALK LONGER!!

Caught off guard but ya. hahaha.

Before I left.

hahahahahaha. This idiot girl

Gonna meet up soon and eat good food hor? If SOMEBODY busy again ah.. We gonna da ta ru " leng gong" alrd. HAHAHAHA.

Had our reunion dinner pushed forward for IDK what reasons. Uncle go malaysia? Go back Batam? Kuzraz coming? IDK LOL. I was super late so I didnt know nuts. Kriss says she cant tell Im drunk or burnt HAHAHA.

I shall name today's post, Me and my round face.

OMG 11 going 12 SHIT!!! MY SLEEP!!! T^T (ohya. leg muscle IS DAM PAIN donno when la dao? k run to bed now BB!)

Oh ya I just created a new msn group. Its named TJC. And I renamed schoolmates to AHSmates. Its a weird feeling.

OH YA. LOVE THIS PIC!!
hehe, before this pic yuling was escaping from cam, wei xiang was rubbing off her burnt skin and I was just stoning. CUTE!
Met yuling and yeenei at bugis today. IF bookshop aunty ever tells you bras basah sells cheaper G.Cs.. NO! They went today and got cheated!
Man, I can't believe NONE of us got into the same class ARGHHHHHH!! But still, I do know cheryl from class 12~

K BB!