I'm feeling so bottled up nowadays.. Its like unlike me to be so, because i tend to talk alot and say alot about how i feel to the closest ppl around me.. But nowadays everyone around me is so caught up with their own stuff, some of them feeling very down themselves, some having their own worries.. Its more like I'm expected (both by myself and them) to be there for them so its kinda hard to open your mouth and say like.. you know i feel so troubled about bla..bla..bla.. cos it just adds on to their *(@^*&%@&*@. and its not solving anyone's !^$*!#*&! but increasing everyone's *(!%*&!$*&! So ya, every night I just go to bed thinking when it is time for everyones' skies to clear so that it'll be a better day for everyone the next day.. Sometimes I don't know what to expect from the ones closest to myself.. because I know my troubles add to their worries. But it just saddens me so much that they are but closest to me and I can't say a single shit to them. If its not them, then who else...? One by one I'm forgetting the things on my mind that I want to share with them.. Its pretty soon I'll forget all of them and thats the actual and real solution to it. Maybe no one wants to hear them actually. But it isnt about hearing the troubles/problems. I just need someone who lets me tell them instead... Thankgod for the space here. I just TOLD! :) BYE! :)